Okay

So I am officially off of steroids, I've lost alot of weight, I'm less materialistic, and school is about to end.
School is about to end.
This is a landmark in my life, and even though I loved the people at my school, I hated high school itself. I took out my violin a few days ago. That action in itself should show how much happier I am now that this is finally going to end. I haven't touched my violin in years, have been thinking about playing the past couple weeks, but haven't actually played it until now.
And now it's raining and I'm cleaning up my room.
This is a time of firsts, and these past two years have been filled with them. I've gotten out of my shell, out of the shadows of colors I was swamped in, and into a bright contrasting world filled with both my best times and my worst times. It's like I haven't really lived until something horrible happened to me. And now, even through all of the bad things, I don't want to stop living.